No matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to stay on top of all of the things that are important to me. Loss of focus, perhaps minor bouts of depression, or just plain laziness could be the culprits, take your pick, but something always seems to get in the way. The changes I’m struggling … Continue reading Juggling
Tag: growth
Progress Isn’t Linear
Progress isn’t linear. This is the phrase that repeats in my head as I backslide. Some weeks I am crushing it at waking up and meditating first thing. For one whole week I was up at 6am. By Saturday of that week I fell off the wagon. Lately, I am back to rolling out of … Continue reading Progress Isn’t Linear
Epiphanies
Lately, in my previously mentioned quest for clean, I’ve been having epiphanies. As I lay my head down at night to sleep ideas are bombarding me. “If I clean out x drawer I can move y things into it.” Or, “If I sort my closet to have cardigans grouped together, dresses grouped together, and so … Continue reading Epiphanies
Better
Things are slowly getting better. I’m moving more, not napping during the week. I’m reading again, I’m writing again. I’m finding balance between rest and productivity, whereas before I was all rest, yet never feeling rested. Today I watched a video from an immunologist at University of Michigan who thinks this is the year the … Continue reading Better
Fear
Fear. A four letter word, a heart pounding emotion that I’ve let run so much of my life. Fear of failure, fear of success, fear of loss, fear of being hurt. So many fears. For a long time I wanted to blame my parents for making me so afraid. After all, problems always stem from … Continue reading Fear
This Too Shall Pass
November 1st. New month, closer to this nightmare of a year ending, closer to election season being over, and one month closer to COVID being behind us. It’s snowing like crazy here in Metro Detroit, and as I’m not a fan of winter, it was initially a blow to my mood this Sunday. Then, I … Continue reading This Too Shall Pass
I Am Enough
Desperation. Insecurity. Those were the hallmarks of how I loved in the past. I was desperate to be loved, to have friends, to keep friends. Everything about me was desperate and insecure. I was painfully insecure in my friendships, never fully convinced I was worthy of their love. Once I made friends, I was so happy to … Continue reading I Am Enough
Self Improvement aka Becoming Who I am Meant to Be
In the last couple of years, I have become mildly obsessed with the idea of self-improvement and growth. It started with messing up my mental health by going off medication when I was already becoming increasingly miserable, while stuck in a job I had outgrown. I spiraled and hit a low spot like I hadn’t … Continue reading Self Improvement aka Becoming Who I am Meant to Be
Martinis and Meltdowns 