Fear. A four letter word, a heart pounding emotion that I’ve let run so much of my life. Fear of failure, fear of success, fear of loss, fear of being hurt. So many fears. For a long time I wanted to blame my parents for making me so afraid. After all, problems always stem from … Continue reading Fear
Identity
A topic that often comes to mind for me is identity. How do I, identify myself? A writer? A talker? Outgoing? Bubbly? Techie? Hippie? Spiritual? Dog person? Cat person? The list goes on. The reality is, these are all adjectives and ultimately pieces of a whole. One person is no one thing. I used to … Continue reading Identity
Week One
Week one of the new year complete, and again, I am living through events I never thought I’d see (and never wanted to see) in my lifetime. Insurrectionists were storming the Capitol building in DC to stop democracy in action. A president who has spent most of the last four years on Twitter eerily silent … Continue reading Week One
2021
2021. The New Year I, and many, have been waiting desperately for. The dumpster fire year that was 2020 had its last moment. The clock struck midnight, and with it, I am choosing hope. While the changing of a calendar page or the stroke of midnight doesn’t make our problems vanish, it does feel like … Continue reading 2021
Isolation
A lifetime ago, when my anxiety took over my life, and I spent most of my time hurting and hurting the ones I loved, I convinced myself I could survive alone. I even wondered if I, and all the people I loved, would be better off if I somehow went off on my own and … Continue reading Isolation
Broken Promises
When I was younger, I felt such a fire inside, a spark of creativity, energy, a feeling of greatness, destiny, and purpose. I didn’t know what I wanted to be or what my future held, but it felt bright and limitless. I had been raised to believe I could achieve anything I wanted if I … Continue reading Broken Promises
This Too Shall Pass
November 1st. New month, closer to this nightmare of a year ending, closer to election season being over, and one month closer to COVID being behind us. It’s snowing like crazy here in Metro Detroit, and as I’m not a fan of winter, it was initially a blow to my mood this Sunday. Then, I … Continue reading This Too Shall Pass
I Am Enough
Desperation. Insecurity. Those were the hallmarks of how I loved in the past. I was desperate to be loved, to have friends, to keep friends. Everything about me was desperate and insecure. I was painfully insecure in my friendships, never fully convinced I was worthy of their love. Once I made friends, I was so happy to … Continue reading I Am Enough
A Life Well Lived
This December, I’ll be turning 40 years old. I know that number throws a lot of people into a tailspin, but personally, it’s something I’m looking forward to. I feel like 40 is the year and decade I’ll take control of my life and craft it into something that truly suits me. That’s not to … Continue reading A Life Well Lived
Self Improvement aka Becoming Who I am Meant to Be
In the last couple of years, I have become mildly obsessed with the idea of self-improvement and growth. It started with messing up my mental health by going off medication when I was already becoming increasingly miserable, while stuck in a job I had outgrown. I spiraled and hit a low spot like I hadn’t … Continue reading Self Improvement aka Becoming Who I am Meant to Be
